I’m Back!

I’m sorry for not posting anything recently! I’ve been so tired, I’ve had to focus on just surviving day-to-day. But I’m back now!

I’m still trying to qualify for sodium oxybate here. I want to teach at my school for another year, but the meds I take now just aren’t good enough to justify staying in Spain for another whole year, it’s too difficult, I think. But sodium oxybate would be a game-changer — I truly think it would allow me to stay here longer, and to participate more in the Spanish life. I really love Spain, and there’s so much I haven’t seen or done yet, so I’m really hoping that I can get sodium oxybate. Otherwise, I think I’ll have to go back to the States, which would break my heart.


Conversations with my Students

Some conversations I had today with my little Spanish angel students:

  • “Teacher!! I KNOW WHERE YOU LIVE!!! I saw you going into your apartment AND YOU HAD PIZZA!”
  • “Teacher, if you want to say ‘I farted’ in English, can you say ‘I made a mess?’ You can, right? I know you can. No, you can. I know it.”
  • “Teacher, Borja from Cuarto has a crush on you!! Do you like him? Can I tell him you like him?!” (NB: Borja is 15 years old.)
  • “Teacher, how much money do you make?”
  • “Are you dating Other Teacher? Are you IN LOVE with Other Teacher?!”
  • “Teacher, what color hair does your mom have? And what’s her name?”
  • “Teacher, did you know that in English if you want to say ‘I’m gonna puke’, you say ‘Chewbacca is coming’? No, this is true! I KNOW it’s true!”


After 24 hours of travel, I鈥檝e finally arrived in Madrid! I will be staying at a bed and breakfast until I can find a place to live鈥 Hopefully that will be sooner rather than later!


Driving, Dreaming, and Losing My Brother

聽 聽 聽 Today, after hanging out at a coffee shop for a bit (the barista was cute, and he looked me right in the eye and I felt my arms and face get heavy, so I stumbled over to my table and focused reeeally hard on putting sugar in my coffee even though my hands weren鈥檛 working so well鈥 Not smooth! Come on, cataplexy!), I went to pick my little brother up from his Driver鈥檚 Ed course. As I was waiting, he pulled up in the brightly-marked 鈥淪TUDENT DRIVER鈥 vehicle, asked the instructor if he was good to go, and walked over to my car, texting on his flip phone.

He didn鈥檛 see me waiting for him, and he kept walking, and the next thing I knew, he had gotten into someone else鈥檚 car and they drove off together. I watched them pull out of the parking lot, dumbfounded, and tried to call his cell phone 鈥 no response! Unsure of what to do, I got out of my car and headed in to the Driver鈥檚 Ed office, planning to check if Driver鈥檚 Ed really was done for the day. I wasn鈥檛 sure how to tell my mom that I鈥檇 lost my fantasy-minded little brother.

I had one hand on the door handle when another STUDENT DRIVER car pulled up and parked 鈥 my brother in the driver鈥檚 seat. AGAIN.

He got out, and I stared at him. 鈥淚 just called you,鈥 I said.

鈥淚 know, I felt my phone vibrate as I was driving,鈥 he said in his raspy-deep, teenage-boredom voice. 鈥淵ou didn鈥檛 need to call, we鈥檙e not even late.鈥

That was when I realized that the first incarnation of my brother was a hallucination 鈥 or, to phrase it more properly, a dream.

My brother hadn鈥檛 walked past my car and driven away with a stranger 鈥 he was right here in front of me, vaguely annoyed that I was smothering him with phone calls during his driving lessons.

So, on the bright side, I didn鈥檛 lose my brother today, and I鈥檓 not losing my mind, either, probably 鈥 I鈥檓 just dreaming.


Bought my plane ticket today.

That makes it official — I’m moving to Spain! My parents are nervous about it, and honestly, I am a bit as well. Narcolepsy is inconsiderate — it doesn’t care about your聽plans to travel the world, it’ll screw you up wherever you go. Still, it’s better to be exhausted in Spain than exhausted in the States, right?